This is the Song That Never Ends

I was having a conversation with a friend the other day (because let’s face it, interactions with my friends influence a lot of these blog posts) about music. They were slightly embarrassed because a song that had huge meaning for them in high school was the perfect anthem to describe what was going on in their life right now. My response was something like “Please, I do that all the time. There is no shame in that.”

It’s actually kind of crazy how it doesn’t matter how many years have passed, there are some songs that seem to fit the occasion when it seems fit. It’s funny because I used these songs as away messages on AIM as a very emo college freshman. Now as a 30 something, these songs still perfectly describe my life, even in completely different situations.

Disclaimer: I’m not saying these songs describe how my life is RIGHT NOW. These are just some of the songs that seem to pass the test of time.

“Change” by Good Charlotte

I am lost in the see-through
I think you lost yourself too
Throughout all of this confusion
I hope I somehow get to you
I practiced all the things I’d say
To tell you how I feel
And when I finally get my chance
It all seems so surreal
Cause from the first time I saw you
I only thought about you
I didn’t know you
I wanted to hold onto
The things you’d never say to me
Cause you said
You can’t change the way you feel

“Found Out About You” by Gin Blossoms

All last summer in case you don’t recall
I was yours and you were mine forget it all
Is there a line that I could write
Sad enough to make you cry
All the lines you wrote to me were lies
The months roll past the love that you struck dead
Did you love me only in my head?
Things you said and did to me
Seemed to come so easily
The love I thought I’d won you give for free

“Vegas” by New Found Glory

It’s so amazing how people can be held down
By just one person that doesn’t even care what they think
I know it’s so stupid

“In the End” by Linkin Park

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when…
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

When there have been thousands of books, songs, and movies written about how exactly you feel, then you cannot say no knows how you feel.


These are a few of my favorite feelings

Don’t lie. You know you love when these things happens. Or else you’re just weird.

(This is probably going to be the most Buzzfeed type of post you’ll ever see on here so apologies in advance but….it’s also my blog, my rules right?)

When you get home from work and can take off your pants.

When you are famished and you eat those first few bites of food.

When you get to that rest stop because you drank too much coffee to keep you up during your road trip.

When you finally brush your teeth to get rid of that icky morning feeling.

When you can just give into a nap and not have to fight to keep yourself awake.

When you find a blanket to pull over you to give you insta-warmth.

When you get butterflies in your stomach because your crush responds in a positive way.

When you genuinely are laughing out loud and can’t stop.

It’s the best isn’t it?


Sometimes You Just Need a Damn Good Cry

Even though you get all snotty, your eyes get swollen, and your nose turns red, sometimes there’s nothing like a good cry to make you feel better. Some of you wear your heart on your sleeve and you cry at the drop of a hat. Others of you hold it back in so well that no one has ever seen you cry before, not even yourself.

And then there are folks like me who let it build up and then the dam explodes.

I won’t lie. Yesterday, I had a good cry. I’ve had several good days and the positive has outweighed the negative lately. But yesterday a multitude of things happened and the dam broke. And I couldn’t hold it back anymore and I had a good long hard ugly cry.

I can’t make myself cry on purpose just for the fun of it. I can’t force the tears to come or for my eyes to start watering up.However if I’m feeling sad already, sometimes I will use other mediums to make the tears come up.

I knew that I needed to get it all out yesterday, so I decided to listen to some rather sad (to me) music to help induce the pain.

Music is a good way to help the process speed along. The lyrics themselves don’t even need to be sad. Just the melody alone can help bring out all the tears. For me yesterday it was:

“Au Revoir” by One Republic

Want to hear some incredible sad yet beautiful music from an unexpected place?

I have to thank the Goat Simulator trailer for having me find this but it’s really the trailer music from the Dead Island video game.

Movies are also a fantastic way for me to start sobbing. I actually enjoy going to see tear jerkers. I do have issues when it feels forced however. Some of the best ones though are when you aren’t expecting to cry.

(Someone replaced the original music with music from Lost. DAMN YOU)

TV shows do the same thing for me as well. Sometimes those are little more intense because if you’ve been watching the show for a very long time, you get invested into the characters. When something happens to them, even if the actor is just leaving the show, you still feel very emotional. I was watching Community the other day and I started crying when Troy left and how they portrayed it. Because he is my favorite character, it made it even worse.

This scene from Lost gets me every freakin time (in fact, I cried again rewatching it right before I embedded into this post).

It’s really hard for me to cry while reading a book. I’ve only ever once sobbed while reading and that was during the last few chapters of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I mean that whole book is just one big tearjerker.

But I didn’t want to stay depressed the rest of the day. It’s very easy and tempting to just wallow in sadness all day. And I hate when I do that. So I went to the gym to go work out all the rest of the emotions that I had. Then I got (yet) another free birthday item and I felt better.

Sometimes crying is good for you. And sometimes you need to know when to stop.