Something must be wrong with my phone.
I mean that must be the reason why I haven’t heard anything back.
It’s not showing me that I have any notifications.
I don’t see a text. Or a call. Or a email. Or a chat.
After all I do have Sprint. I mean sometimes their service can be unreliable.
Maybe my message didn’t go through. Or perhaps the return message didn’t go through.
So it must be the phone’s fault.
It can’t be because I’m being deliberately ignored. Right?
I could think of a bunch of excuses. To justify the reason.
People get busy. People forget to respond.
Maybe it’s the OTHER phone’s fault. Maybe it got stolen. Or broken.
Or maybe there was a kidnapping, illness, natural disaster, moved away.
Hoping that there wasn’t a death and no one contacted me about it.
Most likely though, it’s not intentional. Though it could very well be.
Maybe there just needs to be space. And time. And waiting. And being patient.
There’s always a reason. I just don’t know it yet.
The point is that despite all the things I just wrote, I’m not worrying about it.
The message on Sunday in church was yet ANOTHER one of those ones when I was NOT expecting it to be relevant to me and yet it was again. The speaker filling in talked about having a “black water” experience, and how hard helmet diving is a good illustration about facing a trial when you’re a Christian. Just like diving into places where everything is pitch black and you can’t see anything, going through trials makes you feel like you’re isolated, alone, and in the dark. You don’t know what’s going to happen and you get lost and scared. The only thing that you can rely on is having trust in someone who will tell and show you what you need to do. And then when it’s all done, you’ll come out of the pit, the hole, the darkness and you’ll look and be amazed at what you went through and still made it.
God is the only one that knows what exactly is happening and why it’s happening in this way. From past experiences, I know that I’ll be in the pit looking up and I have to trust that God will rescue me and bring me back up. And when I do come back up, everything seems so much better. And I also know I couldn’t have done it without my faith.
The waves of death swirled about me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
The cords of the grave coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.
“In my distress I called to the Lord;
I called out to my God.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came to his ears. (2 Samuel 22:5-7)
Basically, it’s going to be ok. It’s scary now not being able to see and not knowing what’s ahead. But because I know that I can trust in God, because I know that he’s not failed me in the past, it will be ok.
Maybe the phone will ring or a text will come. And maybe it won’t ever. It’ll still be ok.